I have neglected you for a while. I'm sorry about that but I have been quite busy elsewhere and the intense heat of summer doesn't really inspire me to write very much.
I have been using Facebook more than my blog. I like to update my supporters about the dogs and cats on my group page.
Facebook can be useful at times for getting things off your chest. When you feel angry or hurt it's easy to tap out something that, at the time, makes you feel a bit better. You don't mention names so no-one need be offended. Some people don't feel this is appropriate though. I was reminded of this yesterday when my friend Maria posted about her need to offload her feelings on Facebook, and then finding that so called friends were reporting back to people not even on Facebook. She was informed that she was a laughing stock. She's not of course. Anyone who is laughing has no compassion for someone who has recently lost two members of her family who were very close to her.
People share all sorts of things on Facebook. I've watched them talk about husbands cheating, break-ups of marriages, sadness when a loved one is ill...and even more sadness when someone close to them dies. Facebook can seem like a big family when someone is isolated and has no-one else to talk to. The support gained from Facebook "friends", many of whom we have never met in person, can be very comforting.
I feel very isolated at the moment. I also feel very depressed about things that have happened recently. I try my best to support those close to me. I don't always get it right. When I don't I will always hold my hands up and apologise. Sometimes I apologise over and over again, but that doesn't always work and I end up on the receiving end of someone else's anger. I am told I am self-absorbed....I wish I had the time to be so. I do have feelings though and can be hurt...if that is being self-absorbed, then OK...I am.
But I am also pissed off at being blamed for everything that is not my responsibility. This morning for example it's my fault that the dogs are barking. I am thinking of wearing a sign on my forehead saying "If you want someone to blame choose me".
We are all human. We have failings. We are not perfect. Try not to judge people for the things they do wrong, but try to remember the things they get right. Positive encouragement works far better on someone's self-esteem.
If you wish to comment, please do so here on my blog, rather than on Facebook. Thankyou